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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 00:35

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I was 9 years of age.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

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I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

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My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Why do men date women they are not really interested in?

When she asked me how she looked .

But ive been too sick for many years..

(And it was in our own minds.)

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I never cut or harmed myself..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

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Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

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Where the ultimate outsiders.

It was going to be , some day.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

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A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

So, i spoilt her more .

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

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She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

My family never makes their pension either.

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We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

She wouldn,t have been !

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On the 31st of Jan this month .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I waited trembling.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I think the readers, may guess!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Put me off passion for life!!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

She found it foreign!.

One cannot live in the past .

Why did i forgive my father ?

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

My life is so biszare .

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

She loved him until the end.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I said to her

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She married twice! .

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Ive learnt so much.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Was to survive, this bastard.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Would this be the day?

So whats the point in blame.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

We were not on the streets..

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I don,t even have a pension.

But it wasn’t much.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

This is soul school!.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

And i lived it daily.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

But, we were locked up after school.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I have no regrets .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

We all went to grammer schools

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Who then, do I blame.?

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

He knew the spot.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

What did i know ?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

She was in good health!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I was very sick at this time too.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

As i do to all so called friends.?

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

All the time i was locked up.

Especially a lifetime of it.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I was scared of men, in general

I write beautiful poetry .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I was seconnd youngest,

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Comes on , in middle age.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Im still living with it.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I will be 64.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)